short update!!

Sorry all for having posting in a while!  Just been busy busy with life.   Well the boys and I are doing well.  We are trying to be back in the swing of things with life in general.  Work and baseballs have been taking up most of the free time that we have.  But loving every minute of it. I love being at work and keeping busy.  Hate having to go to the follow up appts with the doctors and physical therapy.  But a girl has to do what a girl has to do.  Look forward to having this all behind and starting a new me.  Right now any free time I have away from work is running to baseball, being a mom and help my friend Tanya run the snack stand.  I know everyone keeps asking me how do I do it.  Well I love doing it!  It makes me feel alive.  As many of you know I don't do well sitting still for a long period of time. 

Had the port put in last Thursday and that went well.  Still a little sore but pushing through as always.  Have my last weekly scheduled fill for the foobs on Monday.  Then after that I have to schedule two more around the chemo treatments.  Because they don't want to stick a needle in you after they just push toxic drugs through your system until you are on the upswing of your body repairing itself.  Right after the fill on Monday I am headed to Bryn Mawr hospital to have my wig fitting.  That sounds so much like an old lady.  But if I am going to lose the hair I am not going to walk around without any.  That is the one thing I really am going to hate.  And I think worry the most about.  Losing my hair.  Not that I think my hair defines me but I enjoy being a girly girl when I want to or putting on my baseball cap and my makeup. 

I start chemo on Thursday.  They say this first one is the longest (5 hours) of just sitting in a chair and letting toxic drugs run through your body to kill any cancer cells that may be there from the surgery.  I am hoping I am going to be able take some naps.  Because I can't even start to think about sitting there for 5 hours and trying to read.  I am going to go crazy.  But it is for the best.  I am hoping to feeling ok to at least attend Jason's game on Sunday.  I hate missing him and the boys play.  They are doing so well and I am so proud of Jason as well as his teammates.  They really have come together to stay the first half of the season as undefeated.  5-0.  I am so proud of my little man. 

Today is Jason's 10th birthday.  I can't believe my little boy is growing up so quickly. 

Well there you go peeps.  A little update on what is going on.  Keep praying and sending those great thoughts my way.  I still have a long road ahead and I think this might just be the hardest of the journey so far.  We are praying that everything stays on the right track and we can be done treatments by July 4th.  If everything goes according to plan.

TTYL

Jenn

Feeling more normal

Well I am feeling better and in very nice recovery mode right now.  I guess you can say that I am feeling more and more normal.  I am still getting the foobs filled every Monday.  Dr. DiBello is putting in about 75 cc's each visit.  Right now I am about 300 cc's in foob.  And I have three more appts scheduled which will be put me at 525 cc's in each before I start chemo.   I start chemo on May 3rd.  I only have to do 4 rounds which I am very happy about.  But I have to schedule my fills around my chemo.  So hopefully we will be almost done during chemo.   Last week I went and got my hair cut very short because I don't think I am going to be able to deal with my long hair falling out.  I am hoping that it being shorter it won't be as bad.  

Well Jason's Opening Day for baseball was a huge success.  It was very fulfilling and helped keep me busy and focused to recover so that I could fulfill my duties.  Everyone was so impressed and loved the day.  It was so rewarding to be a part of it. 

Now onto treatment and to attend and help out at as many of Jason's games that I can.  I truly love being involved with the organization.  I am hoping that my treatment doesn't put me down for too long or too bad because I want to be there for J and show him my support.  To show him that I am a fighter and stay focused on what is important.  He is doing so well right now and really showing how mature he is becoming as well as a team player. 

TTYL

Jenn

One month since surgery

So it has been offically 1 months since my surgery and everything seems to be going well.  Back to work and very happy to be there.  Have been to physical therapy 3X so far and have to go 2X a week.  It seems to be working too.  Not as tight I was in the beginning.  I get to molest my breast to loosen the muscles around the expanders and they have me doing a lot of home exercises to stretch the muscles out. 

I got my first fill today.  It was one of the weidest feelings.  I actually felt the saline going into the expander and also because it has folds in there since they are not full.  I actually heard it unfold.  Again another weird sound from the foobs.  LOL   Well I go back every Monday until they are done.  I started out with 150 cc's and then put 75 in today.  I have no idea of how much they are going to have to put in.  But Dr. DiBello said I will wind up with a full c to d cup.  Crazy huh.  They took off sagging B's and after this is all over I will wind up with perky C - D. 

Going on Wednesday to see the general surgeon to see what is involved in getting the port put in for chemo.  Another surgeon.  Boy I am going to have a road map of scars.  But it is all good.  Now we are on track to have to this all taken care of and get this over with. 

TTYL
Jenn